!!!20/4/25 Even if I want to write, be a real writer

 That is to write from the heart.  To bring the passion back into my life.  Not just merely existing.

I am a champion.  All my life, I have stood my ground.  I can resist dope and cunts.  I can do away with cigarettes.  This is between me and myself.  Never say yes to cigarettes.

I WILL QUIT.

Who am I kidding?  Definitely not to myself.  I must be true.  As it is, it is my life.  What if I just run, run, run?  Just that, what I really want.

Why do I wing it?  No way I'm continuing smoking until I die.  Cigarettes and sugar are my nemesis.  This is my battle.  I will fight it head-on.

I finish the 3 packs, and I do this.  Remind myself why I should quit cigarettes and sugar.  And I walk and run.  I'll be a zealot.

I run!

Don't think of something else; quit smoking and run.

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