21/5/25 Day One, Satan's Judgment of Heaven

 

I and all my resources, against Satan during the Judgment of Heaven.

These are the excuses cigarettes give for not being the runner and athlete that I am:

*    Cigarettes taste better

*    I prefer cigarettes over fresh air

*    I cannot quit cigarettes

*    Cigarette advertisements are lies

The real truth is, smoking is a worthless activity.  I am taking over my life again after 45 years.  It is never too late to quit.  That shows cigarette smoking is worthless from day one.  I was hooked on the advertisement, not by the cigarette.  The cigarettes tasted terrible and caused burned holes in my pants.

To prove a point, my most expensive jacket was a Marlborough jacket, which I bought for RM800. 

Now, what's left is the urge to smoke after meals; the insulin/dopamine void.  This is when insulin opens the floodgates to the fat cells.

To win over the Nicotine Void, I need to refrain from smoking for 30 minutes at a time.  That's all it takes to win over Nicotine.  It is to win over the void.

Avoid sugary stuff, sweet, savory, and caffeinated drinks.

This is day one.  The trial begins.

This trial takes me away to my first cigarette, when I was six years old.  I was already hooked on the glow of the amber light since then.  Cigarettes, then, were progress.  Since then, cigarettes have come and gone from my life.  I was a bad boy from the beginning.  From the time I punched the two brothers for snitching on me, to the afternoon rendezvous on the bike with Nyoir, cigarettes were the central figures.

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